2009 Conjunct
more pain. feels like my chest is being stabbed from the inside out. (emotion bubbles from the inside.) nothing happens "to you", victimization is a farce.
i suppose this friction is about acceptance. accepting that, as a human, you can never know your True Will. (objective and subjective desires do not always coincide, obviously.)
accepting change... the growth of distance between connections. obliteration and resurrection.
moving on from unfulfilled dreams of the past... sometimes i do not care about outcomes, there is strength in this, a strength i do not possess right now.

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'Yoga' (uniting), in the particular case of the Human with the All, establishes a framework of no 'personal' desire and hence no sorrow (to overcome the blackness Buddha was talking about with his 'noble truth' of sorrow emanating from segregated desires) - all phenomena become joyous (the flipside of the coin containing sorrow) / Will is released to do its Nature... call this nature 'desire' as thou wilt, as all yogic/love-driven occurances are thus.


